oh no he didn't!

Yesterday Grey asked me about why people fight and kill each other.  I very clumsily attempted to answer with truth. I explained that we were created to desire God and that we were made to know Him.  When we are without Him we feel hungry or sick because we need Him and want Him.  When that is the case, our life can be full of sin, like hate, jealousy, and anger and these things can cause us to hurt other people.  He got very concerned and said, "you are jealous all the time!".  Well, of course, I tried to justify that my jealousy for someone else's ice cream cone, as an example, is "silly" and not harmful.  Since he could tell that I was struggling for words, he clarified by asking, "you mean it is dramatic? and lame?".  Well!  Who does my child think he is??? using such vocabulary (made me proud)!??!?  I may be dramatic, when needed, but I am never lame!

 

perceive it

I write all of the time!  I don't really know why...maybe so one day my grandchildren can really know me and maybe the stories will embarrass Grey a little.  I truly do count each writing as an alter marking God's sweet involvement in my life.  Lately, I've been wanting to share a bit...  

See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.  Isaiah 43:19

I've been examining the effectiveness of my time recently.  There are so many ways to serve so it is essential to understand my passion and make every step count.  I am ridiculously busy but I have trouble telling what I do.  I don't know if that means I'm oh so humble (doubt it) or if I am spinning circles and not getting anything real accomplished (more likely).  So I've signed up for something new!  Seems like the perfect solution!  I also got out of a few other things that seemed good but showed no results.  I am very thrilled to embark on teaching a class at House of Israel.  What I meant to say is I'm scared to death, but why would I rely on my feelings?  They undoubtedly serve as unreliable.  


My prayer: Lord, please ignore the beggings of my heart and mold it to your desires instead.  Please provide exactly what I need.