Sunday, July 29, 2012

Tyler and Allie

I have no words to describe how my heart swells when I think of Tyler and his baby.  I am so deeply thankful that he and Allie are sharing this experience.  I have hardly looked forward to a moment as I am looking forward to meeting my sweet nephew.  We will share a birth month and maybe a birthday (he is due on my birthday) so I already feel like we are connected.  October babies definitely know how to have fun and I plan on getting into lots of trouble with this Sloan baby.  I praise our amazing Father for this gift in our family.  He is working in mysterious and incredibly beautiful ways in Tyler's life and this baby is a reflection of His goodness.  I am so inspired and blessed by Allie.  She is an exceptional woman and absolutely spills gorgeousness everywhere she goes.  I especially love how Tyler and Allie share their love with each other.  They are a picture of grace and he loves her like Christ loves us.  He makes her a priority and proves that she is worth pursuing.  Marriage is a reflection that Christ is willing to fight and love and pursue and live for you...one person. If it were only you he would still chase after you and speak tenderly to you.  You are His passion and He chose to give His life for you. 

Somehow I got to be there for that miraculous moment when a daddy feels his baby move for the first time.  It is overwhelming to consider how a new life is created and developed so intricately.  I got to see Tyler experience and realize the depth of this new life then the giddyness that followed.



I'll need new shoes...

I am so tired but I cannot shut off my brain.  It probably has to do with the 3-4 glasses of sweet tea I drank at the very delectable dinner we attended.  I hope one day someone will read this and think, "Riley drank sweet tea! (aghast!) She is such a health nut!" Yeah right. It will go more like this, "Poor Riley, she drowned in all that sweet tea."  Oh well. I can only be good at a few things despite my efforts to be perfect.  Tonight we went to Beth's 30th birthday dinner at Nami's.  I tried to imagine my 30th. It is hard to think of myself as 30 because it is so far off, but when I do I'm tall, skinny, successful (suit and heels), smiling, and loving life.  I guess I won't be quite full grown yet since I only have 3 months and am still 60 inches, but most of my dreams have come true and some of them have changed. I am very happy and starting the prime of my life.  Established.  Mature.  Unafraid of the world. Making a new path.

I better get a new pair of shoes before I take on all of that. 

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Life: By any name

I love when words flow bc I feel your presence. I live to feel your presence again. It feeds fresh breath into my life.  Sweet bitterness. Beautiful chaos. I could call it salt and pepper because life is a persistent and pervasive splashing of waves. Crashing and rolling. One moment I am the student and another the teacher, yet conviction is present with each word I teach.  Ever changing. Expectations shifting. Knowledge I would not have without you and a voice propelled to speak even when in doubt. Time In your presence leads me to be your hands and feet. 

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

The Summer Jar

This has been my first summer at home with Grey and I am so thankful for it.  I still like to be productive and use every moment.  The boys are feeling a little cramped with me at home! While I was working full time in my internships they got accustomed to having summer days to lounge and do boy stuff.  They have a man fridge that I am not allowed to use and they have lazy morning routines.  That all changed when I broke in the man fridge because I was thirsty and got Grey off the couch to play and "do something!".  In all seriousness I try to respect the manliness they need and when Grey looks a little bored I let him pull a very exciting activity out of the "summer jar of activities!".  I created it in my boredom.  It is categorized by color: purple= expensive (only about 5 of those in the jar), yellow= not too much money, and green= free.  Grey resisted at first because he is so cool, but he secretly loves it and has even started to ask to pull ideas out! Oh yea, who is the cool mom now??







Another easy but fun activity I dragged Grey into was creating a summer calendar.  Actually he was really excited about this idea.  He worked so hard on it.  He wrote the numbers in June and July all by himself.  I guess I won't worry about his fine motor skills anymore! The calendar has filled up with funness since we made it.  Each night we put a glow-in-the-dark star on the completed day.  ooh!



We've created a jungle diorama, been to Dollywood, made popsicle ice cubes, made lemon juice art, and journaled along the way.




Monday, May 28, 2012

oh no he didn't!

Yesterday Grey asked me about why people fight and kill each other.  I very clumsily attempted to answer with truth. I explained that we were created to desire God and that we were made to know Him.  When we are without Him we feel hungry or sick because we need Him and want Him.  When that is the case, our life can be full of sin, like hate, jealousy, and anger and these things can cause us to hurt other people.  He got very concerned and said, "you are jealous all the time!".  Well, of course, I tried to justify that my jealousy for someone else's ice cream cone, as an example, is "silly" and not harmful.  Since he could tell that I was struggling for words, he clarified by asking, "you mean it is dramatic? and lame?".  Well!  Who does my child think he is??? using such vocabulary (made me proud)!??!?  I may be dramatic, when needed, but I am never lame!

 

perceive it

I write all of the time!  I don't really know why...maybe so one day my grandchildren can really know me and maybe the stories will embarrass Grey a little.  I truly do count each writing as an alter marking God's sweet involvement in my life.  Lately, I've been wanting to share a bit...  

See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.  Isaiah 43:19
I've been examining the effectiveness of my time recently.  There are so many ways to serve so it is essential to understand my passion and make every step count.  I am ridiculously busy but I have trouble telling what I do.  I don't know if that means I'm oh so humble (doubt it) or if I am spinning circles and not getting anything real accomplished (more likely).  So I've signed up for something new!  Seems like the perfect solution!  I also got out of a few other things that seemed good but showed no results.  I am very thrilled to embark on teaching a class at House of Israel.  What I meant to say is I'm scared to death, but why would I rely on my feelings?  They undoubtedly serve as unreliable.  


My prayer: Lord, please ignore the beggings of my heart and mold it to your desires instead.  Please provide exactly what I need.

 

Saturday, March 26, 2011

..either way we still eat

Does it mean I have it together if I have a menu?  It feels a little better to have one but I don't think that is really the truth, so I just relax when I don't have one.  To my other mamas, do you have guilt and stress over feeding your family as I do?  (Grey is watching me and he just pointed to the question mark and asked, "what is that mystery right there?".  lol...let's just laugh at the funny stuff and let go of the not-so-important-stuff).  Anyways, I haven't had a menu in quite a few weeks...we ate...I just don't remember what.  We lived life and the eating just happened.  Well I have a menu for the next two weeks! yay!!!! I feel so prepared and good about that.  It is so nice to come home and have a plan and ingredients to eat something at home.  We tend to eat out if there isn't a plan.  I feel like it is my responsibility to feed my family well, but it is probably my greatest challenge even over school and marriage and parenting and work.  I just really struggle with it, but for whatever reason it is really important to me and I want to excel.  I enjoy seeing your menu ideas when you post. 

Well here is the plan...we dont' always stick to it.

Week of March 26th:
Saturday: Beef Fajitas
Sunday: Lunch- Grilled Chicken with strawberry and pineapple salsa with asparagus and salad (Beth and Danny are coming over to celebrate Joshua's birthday!)
BLT's for supper


Monday: Spaghetti
Tuesday: Chicken Stir Fry with homemade sauce (out of the freezer- so yummy)
Wednesday: Shrimp Parmesan with noodles
Thursday: Roast with carrots, onions, and potatoes
Friday: Eat out

It's Spring Break baby!!!!!
Some items to choose from this week:
Wings with sweet potato fries and salad
Herb Crusted Chicken with Risotto 
Lemon Pepper Pork Chops
Country Fried Steak
and probably just easy stuff like hot dogs and breakfast for supper

You can find us playing on the trampoline, in the sandbox, or drawing with chalk in the driveway!!!  Come join us.